October 4

I know. The title is not really imaginative.

Here I sit on a saturday evening. My sweet wife is visiting with her brother and her daughter right now and I am here watching. I see she is happy and I am glad. She has had a tough week. She has had her third treatment and it is different this time. Each time is different. Her white cell count is down again this time. That is another bad thing about this time. She is going to make it. I know that. But she has days that are not good. She has had difficulty eating this week. Her system will not process food. It goes straight through. But today, it seems that maybe we have gotten past that. I sure hope so. She also had a session where she was very despondent and needed to be reassured that all will be ok. IT will be OK. And I held her and told her. I sure hope she felt better.

On top of everything else, my meds needed to be changed as well. Two weeks ago, I woke up with a pain in my left chest unlike anything else I had experienced. I went to the ER and they checked me out. I did not have a heart attack and there was no indication of any heart damage so I got to go home. I saw my cardiologist 2 days later and that is where my meds got changed. But something has changed. I now have more prevelant angina. Mostly mild, but still I have it now where I did not have it very often before. I keep my nitroglycerin prescription handy as I may need it now. I am tired more often than before also. But I am still working my usual schedule. There is the need for the money and that never ceases. There is a chance of a contract job opening up in Atlanta soon. I hope it comes about because it would provide a great deal of help.

I guess I am running on a bit. There is a lot that I have not been able to admit that was on my mind and sometimes I get it out here. Then I can deal with it. So, dear blog, thank you for allowing me to use you as a release.

Enough for now.