Thursday, August 14, 2008

After Chemo

Darilyn had her first chemo therapy on tuesday morning. She is taking 3 different drugs as well as 3 others to make her feel better while going through hell. She is taking something to help her white blood cells regenerate while fighting the chemo.

That is the chemical regimen. She is tired. She is sick. She feels like crap. And I hate it. I REALLY HATE IT. But this is what we have to do to defeat the cancer, if it can be defeated. There I said it. There are no garauntees and I could still lose this wonderful lady. And it scares the hell out of me but I won't tell her that. Not ever. I will be here for her as best I can and I just hope it is good enough. I am getting to be an old man and I can feel my body not being as strong as it once was. I have problems that could take me any time but it is not in my plan to leave her alone. But what if something happens? Who will be there for her? She needs to get thru this and I will give everything I am and have to see that she gets the chance.

Enough said.